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Date: Thursday, September 13, 2012
Title: like the last post i am sitting in the hub counter...
many things have happen recent... way too much for me to even handle...
why? why is my life so hard? just be cause i deserve this?
i may deserve this but not to this certain extend...
hais... i am not intending for her to understand how i feel i guess..
cos i think is rlly pointless... she will nvr like me one... confirm...
cos i know she like another guy alot...
mama told me to try and ask her... but i told her no need...
cos i see no point.. cos i am rarely talking to her...
and even if she were to really accept me... she will have a hard time... and that is sth i dw it to happen...
well...
all i can do now is to watch over u... from behind the curtain...
what i really wan to archive is to rlly make people forget.. well nbm.. forget it...
i guess it is impossible... cos i will never be able to make it happen..
espically not her...
i wanna change... but i am scare sth will happen... will history report itself again?
no matter what... i will work hard... more patient, less guailan, act properly.. stop giving excuses...
i really love u alot... can u please give me a chance to prove myself... Date: Monday, May 7, 2012
Title: Harlow back(:
currently sitting in hub counter doing nth.
feel sad at one point.
seriously what is love? why is thr even love in this world. why isiz that everytime i love someone i will always end up getting hurt??
maybe i should sometimes think of how to make sure i will not get hurt and someone who will not go for looks and that will rlly treat the bf good.
hais. who can it be sia. only if one day i will be loved by her. jux her T.T will i get wad i wish for? does 11.11 work? Date: Sunday, May 6, 2012
Title: Harlow^^ back to blog after so long! Actually gt post one but den lazy post._. Haha. Hmm~ finally slowly gicing up on her le. Cos I dun rlly see much of a point carrying on waiting for u since no matter what I say u r still forever so angry one. Plus I think I alr found someone I like. HAHAHA! Hmm~ the moment I saw her there is a weird feeling though~ is like a totally different feeling. Hmm~ ya I told her le. But den again doubt she will even accept me at all~ hais. Been a very busy month for me. Major project and event~ APE SIOLLLLL!!! HAHAH Date: Thursday, April 19, 2012
Title: Sorry~ didn't have the mood to update blog due to sth. Sry ar mei. Seriously no mood~ Today is the third day I Nvr text her alr. I dunno what to do. Felt so empty in my heart. Maybe that's why ppl say a person w/o love is like a person w/o heart. This sat. Will I get what I wan? I dun think so~ if the dream rlly come true I think I will be fking happy~ Hais pool skill?! Drop like fk since tue after not texting her~ Zoey Mei keep ask me cheer up~ cos u gt ur Daniel! I gt no one. If not for my pool friends who took my mind off things I would have alr long fallen. Sorry. I didn't wanna text u cos I know I will be a stupid idiot towards u. That's why I rather be a clown den see u angry. Whatever I do thr will be a reason but I can't tell u the reason~ Sorry gtg. I will Jux write till here. Gg close this blog after one month. From this post date onwards. Date: Sunday, April 15, 2012
Title: harlow(: haha time for ytd post! ytd woke up late~ den went ot meet wk~ haha went for Jeremy de rc event at bukit batok. wa far hao bu hao! haha tot we will be late but in the end we were early sia. HAHAHA! reach thr we set up the things for the event. wa it rlly was a tiring experience. haha. after awhile setting up~ VANGUARD! WOO~ I JUX LOVE IT~ den awhile ltr. lunch for free~ HAHAHAHA~ it rain after lunch. wa.. shag bodoh~ went to buy cards~ spent like $10 thr sia. haha nvm i at thr having fun(: haha next was pool~ it was so fun~ haha den stepanine and lina like jkers== play pool hor wa pros i tell u == the balli also dunno how spueeze through lina can squeeze through! PROS! WCG PLAYERS ! WA... RLLY PRO... den went home get sth den pei them go henderson market eat. eat le they went off... den i alone ar thr wait for zoey mei. kns from say 10 come down become 10.30~== wa... help her with hw till nearly one! wa from morning till 1 havent bath yet lei! wa... teavh her rlly wan die... my psle maths alr return to teacher le sia. seriously wanna die le sia. the maths so hard. i only rmb know how solve using a maths question~ the rest i dunno le... haha thats my day. hais sotong, whether u reply text i keep wondering.. whats on ur mind... i dunno what u thinking . if only i gt power to read ur mind): i jux wan to prove to u how much i love u~ im still waiting for ur ans~ when cna u give it to me... my birthday is one week away nia... ;cry Date:
Title: Hmm~ around one more week more to my birthday. And yet u still wan kp me. Ask u out is like asking the wall out~ I text u like texting texting a spoil recorder~ over and over again u keep repeating the same sentence again and again~ is like what's the point of me texting u when u keep ooh me. Wdf is wrong~ u kp me say ppl plan for me is they happy not me~ it Jux seems like its their birthday~ ya I am not happy~ now the only thing that can make me happy is ur ans being yes~ but when will u tell me the ans but I know that the ans is either no or else will be very long ltr one~ hais sotong I swear I love u dao rlly dunno what to say): nth describe my feelings for u~ hais): Meimei~ u also cool down~ Mai so angry~ I know u dulan. But also so kp~ korh dw see u like that~ I know ur father attitude is overboard~ but he is doing for ur own good understand~ Hmm~ tmr is RC zone 5 west event. Jeremy ask the whole hub hr come down help~ so ya~ tmr gt to wake up early~ no choice~ Hmm~ 5~ why the number 5 now keep coming out-.- I think sth is wrong now. Cannot be everything also 5 one. -.- kns btr not be what I think it will be... K can Btw this is the post for ytd~ Date: Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Title: Someone only know how to ask me to update blog~ keep wan stalk nia~ HAHAHA~ Zoey mei ar, korh update le so dun say i no update hor. tyvm. hmm~ this few days been a weird day. hais mix feeling... sometimes i can be happy and yet also be sad for no reason. i only can say that is cos of u~ sometimes i dunno whether am i talking to a wall or what. when i saw u say u pon sch, i was like wdf. hais shag straight away. i feel like scolding u. but den scold le gt use ma~ i only ur friend, so i see no point scolding. happy things to say? GT MY PSP! HAHA TO ER JIE ANNABELLE~ haha happy ba~ I miss u. Do you know?? i been waiting for ur ans very long le lei... hais... how long more i must wait): Date: Monday, April 9, 2012
Title: Start of a new Blog Life HAHA! SHOULD BE BLOGGING AGAIN. COS OF MEIMEI(: haha! start my school of ITE hao bu hao. hmm~ i know that is stupid. but i wanna give it a try. i wanna show tot the people who think i cannot achieve good result(: haha. haha recently kinda know each other well one . that person ar... hais Zoey, meimei ar. The brain is bloody weird hao bu hao. TELL HER RELAX FOR HER ORAL DUN UNDERSTAND DE SIA. BLOOD BOILING LIKE HELL HAO BU HAO! haha but den she very kind luh haha cute too that sth for sure ^^ AND MEI MEI I KNOW U WILL SEE THIS IM NOT CUTE! k can (: haha~ been very devoted to hub, lion dance and service club!~ haha~ In hub, I am a Hub member and have to take care hub~ In lion dance, Im exco, the only year1 in the committee. In Serviceclub, jux a member only~ Hais): I love u but do u even wan me??? T.T 3 MONTHS LE LEI! 3 WHOLE MONTHS~ My birthday alr coming... what present u gg give me... hais shall stop here... need help some chiobu go understand A5 devices de iOS Labels: PinkMonster~ Date: Friday, November 26, 2010
Title: It's been so long since i have write and updte tis bloody blog... i look at a number of ppl blog and it makes me wanan update loh... haiss... i dunnno wad happen to me seh... since tat time... nth seems rite... i do everything wrong... i dunno why i'm feeling so de sad... maybe cos i still miss u ba... but i have to let go of u... i once told myself i shouldnt fall too deep... but i fell down the drain... a deep 1... yes... i noe it's impossible... but i wanna make it possible... my mummy told me to be happy... everyone told be to be happy... but dhen did they go through wad i have gone through? nope... haiss... u dunno how much i miss u... but dhen thx to the ppl who care abt me... came bck from camp not long ago... OMG i miss all my friends there... I LOVE ANCOC 2010 haiss... i miss too mani ppl liao... maybe i should jux go and die... Date: Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Title: It's been so long since i update my blog... I'm so sick that even when i type... i type like 1 stupid idiot like tat... audi cant even plae for so mani days... haiss... been thinking abt that person since the day... i dunno why... i think my wound still still over there and yet not been close... sometimes i wonder why is love so hard... if was not for that guy... i wont be so miserable... I HATE EUU AND THAT GUY ALOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! learning to forgive and forget is wad i learn... sometimes... i feel tat i am not myself anymore... i feel i am not wanted in tis world... i feel... everything have change for the worst... from the day i wish to leave it in my friends hand... if i nvr plae audi... nothing will happen... why did i plae tat day... why??? why??? T.T no matter how misserable i am not... nth can help me back and go onto my tracks... i wish to burn the photo that we have taken but i couldnt bring myself to do it... by finding a replacement onli hurts my heart even worst... T.T i have been living in a fake world where everyone thinks i am ok... but the truth is tat i have not gotten over the matter up to today... i jux wish not to do anything... really... i dunno why... Date: Saturday, June 12, 2010
Title: It has been a long time since i update my blog... Have been working... It was tiring but dhen it was fun... hahax(: i love ________ hahax(: no 1 will noe who.. i am oso not going to tell euu who... XD Date: Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Title: hahah<; lauqhs . continue writing , idm <: enjoy okae. bai Date: Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Title: To ppl who have scold me in my tag board: Well done! euu have did well in scolding... cos i think i should have it... To ppl who have me scold back the ppl who scold me: Thanks alot. Well... let them to continue to scold i do not really take it to heart... so nvm... HAHAX! Today was happy day when i was outside of class... I was playing wif my gan mei, Janice, and WK. dhen after awhile i go BM library slack... haiss... nth much la... Thrus is a special day but oso the most boring day... Date: Sunday, April 18, 2010
Title: Things are beginning to get worst for me... I love to make things right for everyone... But everyone make it sounds like everything is also my fault... i dunno what to do... I feel tat i shouldnt be in tis world at all... How i wish i could be erase in everyone memories... Why mux everything my fault... If euu wish to slap me... Do it! Euu noe why? Cos i think i am idiot loh... I dun think i am good enough to live in this world at all... i wan to kill myself... SOMEONE PLS RUN A KNIFE THROUGH ME! I DUN WAN TO LIFE.... Lucky onli my darling mei understand wad i mean... But why everyone oso sae forget abt her... it's not as easy as wad euu think ok... i feel tat i am a bastard... i have kill mani ppl feelings... Ah tan... terribly sry... i cant make things rite at all... Wad if thing get more worst... i cant wait for euu... i wan kill myself... Why do i keep have tis feeling to look into ur eyes... =.= Date: Saturday, April 17, 2010
Title: HARLOW PPL! I am back to post. so much have happen tis days... i dunno wad to do... ppl have spam me wif mani sms... and the person i wish to sms have gone... though i am sad and feel like crying... i dun think i will forget tis... and tat so mani ppl dun believe me anymore... i dun care... euu noe why? cos i noe i believe myself... whyy? cos i noe someday ppl will understand wad i am trying to do... i did something which i should not have done... i wonder why i wonder how... thinking abt ppl... Why ppl mux do tis to me... things have not been good to at all... friends are trying to get lose from me... Ah tan i am terrible sorry to wad i have done... it's all my fault tat tis happen... she could may have sae yes de... but i ruin everything... i decided to help euu make things rite... i will help euu... PROMISE I dunno why i really dunno why i feel like talking to euu... but dhen euu jux fly away from me... why??? _ _ _ _ _ _ I STILL TREAT EUU AS A BEST FRIEND! _ _ _ _ _ _ I LOVE EUU! <3 Date: Sunday, April 4, 2010
Title: life is so bored... nth to do... cant plae audi due to somethings... haiss... no 1 will believe me... unless... ppl who are very close wif me loh... nvm... as long i believe myself can le... my day was as per normal... jux today... sth bad happen... haiss... jux release... wound still hurts like hell... but nvm... not matter wad my life still suckx... doing things tat i nvr do... but being question by ppl... i guess... there are no 1 i can trust anymore... haiss... feel like crying but dhen i cant... cos i boi... haiss... wad's the meaning of life... if things... are not like like nw... i think i will be veri happy... and skips things which i have to go... Date: Sunday, March 28, 2010
Title: Finally... i am no longer a C-class rank car... it's has become a B-class... So happy... yesterday... sth unpleasant happen though... i do nt wish to sae... but after tat... i went out to bukit panjang to meet my xiao gu and joey... We plae like siao... hahax... post another time... Date:
Title: i dunno why i suddenly feel like updating my blog... maybe cos after so many things tat happen... i feel tat i really nid to type it out some how... l8r type again... bye... Date: Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Title: life sucks alot after so mani things have happen... ppl scolding me alot... there is nth i can do... trying to help sucks to the core man... maybe i should jux forget abt my operation... cos tis year nth goes well for me... nth works... seriously... Date: Friday, February 5, 2010
Title: haiss... i nw dun wan talk abt anything... scolded by ppl... jux cos of WD... i really dunno wad to do... i feel... sad... angry? damn mad? i wish i can forgive everything and everyone... tears are coming down my face... 14 feb is a special day... i have to do sth... gtg bb Date:
Title: nw talking to some1... lame... Date: Monday, February 1, 2010
Title: haiss... nw trying to plae audi but then ya... yesterday alr promise some1 will update means update... nw mother scolding like shyt so i keep it short... today is the most boring day le... went sickbay talk to all my junior... have to settle a major problem... i say it i do it... sianx... gtg le... bb... p.s.: PLS EUU 2 DUN FIGHT LE CAN? Date: Saturday, January 23, 2010
Title: hahax... today is such a good day for me... gt back my phone... nw talking to my gan grand-daughter... she is singing... and err... okok... dun wan say... W980 back... hahax... nth to do... onli wan faster lvl up for audi... and ppl who noe my secret... DUN SAY OUT... |